I'm Freaking Engaged!
May 16, 2018
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I feel like I have no
words as I write this post....I’M FREAKING ENGAGED!!! I get to marry my best
friend and I cannot contain my excitement about it. It happened on May 5, 2018,
Cinco de Mayo (which means absolutely nothing to us LOL). We were on a friends
camping trip in Yosemite for the weekend and I had absolutely no idea that he
was going to ask me to be his wife. We had just gotten back from a day in the
meadow looking at El Capitan and when we got back (with only half the group),
Tanner asked me if I wanted to go for a walk by the river and obviously I did!
I love water! We were walking down there just talking and holding hands and
when we got to a cute little spot by the water, I was messing around in my
Hunter boots splashing around in the water and I turned around and asked him
for my surprise when we got back to the tent because all day he had been
taunting me that he had a surprise for me and I thought about it in that moment
and when I turned around from splashing in the water, he was standing there
with a little box in his hand. I swear my stomach immediately dropped! I know I
wrote this earlier but I had no idea that he was going to give me a ring, I
thought for sure he made me a custom coffee mug because I have such an
obsession with them but NOPE! He opened the box and in there was the most
beautiful dainty rose gold engagement ring with a diamond cluster. He told me
that he loved me and said he wanted to ask me somewhere pretty and he wanted it
to be on his terms and not on anyone else’s. He asked me to be his wife and
that was it, I said 1000 times yes and we kissed and I was freaking out. I am
going to be honest, it was a pretty big blur because I was just so excited and
happy and overwhelmed with love. It was an amazing moment, we took a few
selfies and hung around the water for a little longer before going back to the
camp site.
We didn’t tell his
friends until the next evening but it ended up being perfect because we kind of
got to keep it a little secret between us for a night and that’s so us when it
comes to our relationship, we like to relish in our own excitement and keep
things to ourselves.
The biggest issue with
the whole thing (if issue is even a word) but he did not talk to my parents
about it before he asked me to marry him. My parents are not traditional, but I
know my mom and she is pretty hard on me when it comes to growing up and being
responsible, so I knew it was going to be a battle when we got home and it HAS
been! I am so happy about this whole thing and I wouldn’t change it for the
world because I love everything about Tanner, but I just wish my own mom could
be happier for me from the beginning. It’s still pretty fresh and I don’t want
to say too much that I will regret later but I am hoping that she can
eventually be happy for Tanner and I. He is the most amazing person I know and
it will all get better once Tanner has a chance to talk to my parents.
We are planning on
keeping the engagement on the longer side, maybe 1-2 years. We have some things
to figure out, I have to figure out which school I am going to go to and he has
to figure out his career choice, we aren’t going to make those stipulations of
planning the marriage but it would be nice to have a little stability when we
enter into a marriage together.
I cannot say enough
things about how amazing Tanner is. He has the kindest heart, the biggest heart
and the most selfless heart. He is there for anyone when they need him and he
has been the most loyal friend, brother, son and grandson and when I hear his
family talk about him, I can’t help but to get super giddy inside that he’s
mine and I get to be his wife. And can I just say...that beard (so hot!!) He’s
my best friend in the entire world, I know him in the most unbiased way and I
love him without bias as well. I cannot thank God enough for not only bringing
he and I together but for how he brought us together, He let us get to know
each other without judgement or hesitation or the need to impress each other,
He truly let us get to know one another’s souls, our strengths and weaknesses,
the way we handle stress and tough situations, the way we interact with people
and most importantly the way we work together.
I can’t stop saying
“Tanner is going to be my husband” in my head and I can’t stop looking at my
left ring finger and just thinking that the love of my life gave that to me
because he chooses me!
So here’s to a new
chapter in mine and Tanner’s love story.
I am now a FIANCÉ and a future McIlrath!
